Saturday 4/26 - 4 days old - updated 11:30 pm

Saturday 4/26 - morning weight 6 lbs 0 oz.

1:15 a.m. - Next feeding wasn't "due" until around 2:30 but Gavin woke on his own hungry :) Nursed strong for 20 minutes then laid on my chest for awhile. The neonatologist was there - he had a new c-sect baby to check out - so he came to talk to me. The good news is Gavin hasn't had anymore desats......bad news is the Earilest he's looking at getting out of here is on Wednesday :( The neo said that after a desat they like to watch for 5-7 days. He will have to be on the monitors (heartrate, pulse ox, respiration & .........ugh whatever the 4th one is i can't remember) the whole time. I don't see how I'm going to be able to stay with him, Rich needs to get back to work. The thought of leaving him here makes me sick. I CAN'T!!!! He's finally nursing so well, I refuse to give him formula. In the morning I need to let Rich know what's up - I just know he's going to say I need to come home. I don't know........I'm just super upset right now.

5:00 am - Another good feeding, not quite as long - just over 10 minutes - but he nursed well. They took some blood for another bili test.

7:30 am - Woke up hungry lookin for me :) Nursed for just over 20 minutes and was wide awake for awhile. When he started getting sleep I just sat there with him on my chest. We were so comfy :) I hated to put him down but his bili levels came back at 14 so he still needs the lights (they were 13.9 yesterday morning). They'll check his levels again at 6 pm tonight. I talked to Rich this morning and told him what the neo said about being here til at least wednesday and I feel a little better now that i've talked to him. I really thought he was gonna push for me to come home and leave Gavin here but he didn't :) He said if his boss doesn't like him taking extra days off he'll just tell him where to shove it and will get a different job. It's a good thing we'll be getting that tax rebate this coming week - it couldn't come at a better time. Well my breakfast should be here soon - will update later today and will get some new pics next time I go in to feed him.

1:00 pm - we had another great feeding at 11:30. We're getting away from the "scheduled" every 3 hour feedings and trying to let him wake on his own which he's been doing :) Sometimes it's 2 hours sometimes 4 so they're willing to let him go up to about 4 1/2 hours before needing to wake him up for a feeding which we havent had to do yet since he's done it on his own :) My sister came up for a bit and after I got done feeding Gavin she took me over to Walgreen's so I could get some soap and shampoo and ibuprofrin. It was nice to get off the hospital grounds even if it was only for about 20 minutes.

3:00 pm - Gavin woke on his own for this feeding too :) So he has woken himself for every single feeding today! I spent about an hour and a half back there with him. He was so alert :) He nursed for a bit, then got his diaper changed, nursed some more then looked around for awhile, nursed some more then we cuddled until he fell asleep. I could have sat like that all day long with him but wanted to get that light back on him. He gets his blood drawn again at 6 pm for the bili levels and the results should be back around 7 or so. I am exhausted so think I will try to get a quick nap in.

All this evenings feedings went great. Just got back from feeding and cuddling with him :) His bili levels are down to 12.2 now :) Which is enough to take him off the lights but we're gonna keep him on them overnight just for the heck of it. He'll come off of them around 7 a.m. after his levels are checked again. They'll then check again tomorrow evening to make sure they didn't rebound. They don't think they will though :) IF his levels are going to go back up though I hope they do it tomorrow that way we can have it all taken care of before wednesday. He had some company for a little while tonight, a c-sect baby was back there for a little while for some fluid in his lungs. Looking at that baby then looking at Gavin and omg Gavin looks like a total little peanut!! lol the nurse said the other baby weighed 10 lbs 11 oz! Well I'm off to get some sleep, he should be waking up around 2 to eat again. Probably won't post very many updates tomorrow, since he'll be off the lights i'll be back there holding him much more :)